Am I so irresponsible?
last night i kept thinking of whether i am really so irresponsible as described by the one. all the while i just try to be as friend and lecturer for the students, as i think some of them are alone over here, and they are new, so it is just by virtue of morality and humanity stand that i offer my help. just because i refuse to answer the questions that not related to my subject and because of that i been quoted irresponsible? is it fair to quote a person just from his saying and acting? why one can not distinct between jokes and harsh? i am used to say 'i dont know' all the time, everyone that know me should know this, just like some people always say 'right', 'ya' and so on.
thanks to one that make me realize that all the time i had been crossed the line between the student and lecturer. i violated my profession rules, and my superior had warned me since the first day i was here but i just took it easily and recklessly. for that time i just thought that it was so unfair and sounds not humane to the students. why everything must follow rules? should not be when the time rules should become a bit flexible and not so rigid? i thought it is good that if there is always some tolerances. But until now, finally i realized my mistake and now i know why they stipulate that kind rules. Thanks to God, it is still not late to fix the troubles that emerged and caused by me. I prays to God so that i can now have the strength to carry out my duty without any concern. i should take a firm stand to run my duty without any doubts.
all the time i always listen to students and try to solve their problems as i could, i always changed the due date, giving a lot assignments and tutorials so that from there i can choose the highest for them, in order for them to get highest marks as possible for coursework. i admitted that i am not suppose to do this, but still i do it. but the ending always that 'he is very troublesome and demanding one, always ask us to do a lot of things', i know all these comments from my ex-students, but why should i care? i know what i am doing, i do not have to tell everyone the reason why i want to do this and that! i never think that i want to be sounds like so hollistic, but one the facts that i just want to help. i am a student as well, so i know.
i think now it is time for me to revert back to the standard lecturer. i sworn to myself that i will change and try not to cross the line again. everything should follow rules and regulations. once i violate the rules and regulations, then there is no defence for myself. but if i follow rules and regulations, at least i still can defence myself base on the laws.
thanks God for letting me facing this kind of sitituation. even i am so and badly hurt, but i will regain my strength and do my best, these i promise to myself.
thanks for all of you for the advices and support and spent your golden time to listen and to lighten all my sadness that i gone through. i love you guys.
July 2, 2008 at 4:49 PM hehe...erm...
in my opinion, u not a irresponsible lectuere..
jz coz of the student too depend on u, so whnever u dint help them, they will blame on u, so wat for u ned to care them so much..rite..
so dont think tat is ur false la
..hehe
July 2, 2008 at 10:57 PM "Off" & "On" there will sure be student who does inconsiderate ACT. As you have said, there are -rules- & -regulations-. it might be TRUE that you have cross the border, which indirectly lead to some student to take advantage of this situation and act unreasonably. However, I still strongly support your idea of changing the concept of rules & regulation. Old rules and regulation? Can it be modified and change according to the student needs. In this way, we can fully help them to use their ability develop their studies. I still rmb that you told us about 1 of your student. You help him discover his ability of learning. He draws in a "comic" way to learn "Faster". I feel that it is still a good idea to help student and try getting close to student to discover their ability. This I think a lecturer should be. Else bad student will always be bad student. Why is there education? Education is important as this are ways to train human to understand themselves and things around them better. Else, everything around them, the future ahead of them, will just be a waste.
Anyhow, you will alwiz have my support no matter wat decision you make.
you are our precious lecturer... ^_^
p/s sorry for destroying ur computer, i will try to repay it. @_@
July 3, 2008 at 3:07 AM sir ...
sumtimes rule n reg a mean to be break ...
but sumtimes we muz follow it ...
but jz sumtimes lah ...
u r nt suppose to teach them other than your subject ...
if later others lecture find out mayb will be not so good lah ...
i agree tat u say u hv cross the border ...
u take the risk to cross it ...
but they dint appreciate it ...
so i think tat it is pointless for u to cross over it again ...
all those extra jz dont bother bout it because your are not suppose to do it rite ???
cz u still nid study ur things ma ... XD
so wasting time on them better wasting time on your business ...
unless they really appreciate what you done for them ...
that will be another case ...
sir jz do wat u think it is good for you ...
u alwayz have my support ...
ps:u haven tell me wat ur bro saw inside ur collection ...