"If you work harder, you will get luckier" per Anita Sarawak dictum.

funny,i notice that nowadays some people are so dependence on others, including myself, we expect that others must do this and must do that for us, even though sometimes that is not really their business to do the favour for us, but still, when they refuse to do, then we will just instantaneously quote them as irresponsible, shit and so on. We tends to forget that we ourselves actually bear the responsibility to ourself, not them. why must others spoon feeding us? as myself, i am mature enough to be independence, but yet, i always blame some people on not doing a favour for me. conscientiously speaking, i am adopting the bad habit and this is actually just erode the virtue of self-dependence and this whim is really killing me to move on. when i get the refusal, i become so frustrated and demotivated to carry on my duty as a student, i am so depends on others to give me a hand in order to accomplish my duty, and i always find thousand and thousand of excuses just to blind myself and put the blame and responsibility on others. Oh my Lord, what is wrong with me? i become so negative and everything i do just seems like negative all the morals that i try to hold on for so long.
luckily, thanks to the angel that made me realize that i should change and back to the old me. i need to transform back to the old me and all the best for myself!! Haha