"If you work harder, you will get luckier" per Anita Sarawak dictum.

ever wish i can just do nothing, having a beer and watch my favorite match, or drunk until -> , or try to gossip with other , or invent something safe and but fit cut-the-edge fashion , or may be can consider to change my hair style, or try to play my dusted electric guitar, or maybe can learn violin in a more advance level!, or maybe can do some exercise actually i am quite fit in mind, but not in physical, or maybe can consider to do some experiment, or attempt ambush someone by water gun , or maybe go to church to pray for mercy (money) or maybe dream of 4 numbers(joking), i wonder sometimes i watch, do i need to make confession? but will he forgive me? or i have to bear the culpability? or am i sinful? and what's the repercussion? oh God, punish me because of my honestly? it can't be! damn, i always joke with him, hope he don't mind. oh ya, i forgot they are going to get marry soon, hope they will have a very happy life together, me so envy...jealous...resentful and feel bitter in rivalry, pity me, no market value, oh God, why make me so perfect until i can't find another half? i wish i have one defect that will at least won't make me feel sorry for others and get my another better half......life is so cruel and unfair to the perfectionist

wonder why i post the cat version? easy answer : because i never practice double standart, if there is dog, there is always cat, ying and yang balance the universe, so do I.