"If you work harder, you will get luckier" per Anita Sarawak dictum.

I was so spinning in my grave. i pinned my hope on you, but palpably i was wrong. i felt like all the while i was just spinning my wheels. Is it so hard to ask for help? Am I a totally stranger to you? Or am I a rubbish to you? Words fail me.

You know I am not an iron fist in a velvet glove, and if you know yourself are filmsy, then you should find a way to help yourself. I am trying to separate the sheep from goats, and pave the way for you, so that you can build your confidence and learn according to your ability and rhythm or pace. Whatelse should i do for you? Do not make me give up faith on you.

Life never easy. I am not God, i have my feeling too. Every emotion you show on your face, and emoticon in msn will affect me too. The time when you are let down by your result, i feel it too. i am dishearten, i feel disenchart, i am stymie like you, i meet checkmate.

You feel like your whole world came crashing down around you. How about me? You think that i am making a belly laugh and laughing up my sleeve? There was once a sagacious man said:"apprentice accountable for his result, but the master accountable for the process", when you fail, directly means that as a master to you, i myself fail, too. If you were to hang your head in shame, then count me in.

Do not ever compare yourself to others. Everyone is unique. Everybody has his own learning method. You can adopt, but you have to modify. You are not him. Compare in the way to learn the best from him, not to make yourself subaltern.

Everyone is here, and always here. All the masters are always prepare to give the hand whenever the apprentice reach out his. We have a safe pair of hands for you, but why you want to sit on your hands? Do not let us wait until the cow come home.

For me, study is the point of no return, and it is definitely a one way ticket to attainment.