"If you work harder, you will get luckier" per Anita Sarawak dictum.

Learning orthodox:
1. Don't know what you don't know
2. Know what you don't know
3. Know but still learning to use
4. Automatic Integration

basically, i am in blue when someone asked me to ask. damn, i am just like the rest of you, first lesson always in stage 1. seems to me i know everything because i can comprehend every single word that spell out from your sexy mouth, but when you post question, i am kind of lost at sea. as an apprentice, all of us just require or dream to have a guru who has the common touch on all of us, am i right?

after day and night study and scrutinize to learn, and after continuously palpably diagnose the questions, i am glad that now at the position of stage 2. to further strengthen and enhance the comprehension, i keep on digging the goldmines of knowledge until the cows come home. i don't have eyes like hawk and as bright as a button as some people, i am from time immemorial to reach the same stage as them.

i know myself far more than others. i can only ask when i am in stage 3. i am just not confidence and am all fingers and thumbs all the time, worrying will laugh out of court by the others. i am just a common-a-garden person, what do you expect from me? honestly, i seldom read and study, i am absolutely a swine. i have to swallow my pride and wish the ground would swallow me up to admit that i am slothful. i am ennui to sustain the pace and continuance of study. laziness is tardily killing me innerly. damn, i desperately wish to be diligence, earnest and zealous like my gorgeous colleagues.